What were we thinking?!?

I must admit the thought "what were we thinking" had been part of my thoughts almost every second of every day.  Okay maybe not that much.  But still....I have to say I have been pretty home sick.  Don't get me wrong Sweden is beautiful and has many great things about it but when you miss almost everything about home nothing compares.  And I do mean nothing.  Haha!  But from what I understand being home sick is kinda the norm and they say give or take 6-8 months to adjust.  Let me tell ya though it can really wear a girl out...and her husband.  Lol.  It's all just so different and right now different is...for lack of a better word...annoying.  Ha!  I'm hoping that once life really starts then it will start to feel more like home.  Kids start school in a week and a half.  They say they are excited.  Mostly they want some friends.  That makes me happy but also breaks my heart at the same time.  I, on the other hand am having anxiety about them starting school.  Ha!  We went and talked to the principal where the kids will be going to school and this mom right here had a complete melt down.  Pretty soon I'll be known as the Crying American mom.  Lol.  The thought of all that the kids are going to have to go through these next couple of months just eats at me.  Mostly because we brought them here and put them in this place.  We chose this for them. They didn't... I know they say kids adapt easy but as a mom I can't help thinking like this.  They after all are my babies.  

Johan also leaves for Kenya here soon and that will be mine and the kids first time alone here.  I'm excited for him!  A little jealous he gets to go and I don't.  Haha!  But excited to be reminded why God has brought us here.  There were a few weeks here that I just was so extremely home sick I didn't even want to pray cause I just wanted to go home.  I didn't want to hear God tell me He brought us here and everything would be okay.  Seriously!  Ha!  I know we are here for a reason though and I know God will use our faithfulness to bless others.  Doesn't mean His path is always the easiest but it does mean it's the most rewarding.   He has it covered and so one thing I know I need to focus on the positives and be thankful everyday for where he has us and how he will use us for his glory!  

Proverbs 3:5