Not sure what to say anymore...

I've had others ask why I'm not keeping up with my Blog.  And I can honestly say it's cause I'm not sure what to write about.  I'm kinda at a point here that I'm a little confused about things and just not sure what to write or should I say what I can write without getting negative comments or people thinking I'm bashing on Sweden.   I've recently written a few status updates on Facebook and it became very apparent people will read them and respond however they see fit.  I'm struggling with this in so many ways! You see the thing is I'm in Sweden...yes it's a very lovely country and yes there are many great things about it but also yes this is not my home and yes I am still struggling.  Yes, there are differences and it's okay!!!  I feel that I have been stripped of just being able to say how I feel without carefully scripting what I say/write in concern that others will take it out of context.

Is it giving up???

Well, we are basically right back at the same point we were 7 months ago.   All packed up and ready to load all our bags and hop on the plane.  Only this time back to Colorado.  I'm super excited to go home or should I say I should be....but for some reason I have this heavy feeling of "should we have pushed though that 6 month mark" and did we give up too fast and what if we were supposed to be here and what if we are walking away from Gods calling on our lives so many what ifs.  Don't get me wrong, I do want to move home!  I just hate the feeling of thinking I might have caused us to shut a door on something God had in mind for us!