Is it giving up???

Well, we are basically right back at the same point we were 7 months ago.   All packed up and ready to load all our bags and hop on the plane.  Only this time back to Colorado.  I'm super excited to go home or should I say I should be....but for some reason I have this heavy feeling of "should we have pushed though that 6 month mark" and did we give up too fast and what if we were supposed to be here and what if we are walking away from Gods calling on our lives so many what ifs.  Don't get me wrong, I do want to move home!  I just hate the feeling of thinking I might have caused us to shut a door on something God had in mind for us!